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Saturday, 27 June 2009 @ 09:47
-Long Post Ahead- **Menghapus JejakMu** bare with me, coz this post will be kinda emo, sentiments and draggy. let me start with a song/quotes. engkau bukanlah segalaku bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku usai sudah semua berlalu biar hujan menghapus jejakmu terus melangkah melupakanmu belah hati perhatikan sikapmu jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan firstly thanks to all for the courage and support. 4yrs3mths. yes, that was the exact period of our relationship. we went thru ups and downs. we went thru a lot of things. the way u present urself on the first day i met u (21/03/2005). ur behaviour, ur smile, ur charisma and ur love towards me. each day we texted like a lot of sms and calls. the day u cried when i had to leave you to Indonesia for my further studies. the point of time that we cried when u were admitted to hospital. the moment when u whispered to me how much u love me. and everytime when u hold my hand tight. ur favourite werd that u used on me. "kental uh u" & "buds kens" and the moment of stressness on what to surprised u for your bdae. and u are always there when im in need. ouh well, theres a lot to list down. and to forget is really a hard thing for me. but boy, u aint belong to me no more. ur families, ur love, ur trust and u. are just memories. if this is what you really want and if thats the person that can make you happy. i ikhlas and redha. yes, i have been keeping all this to myself. i took 3 weeks to sit and think. talking to my friends and families. and miracle do happen. that day, that morning, my dad. my dad whom i thought was against me for every deeds that i do. is there for me. when he stare at my face and told me that, whatever problems that u have, no one can help you but ALLAH. yes, i agree, no matter how much u try to rant ur sadness to anyone, u just wont feel satisfied, because they don't feel what u are feeling. and thanks to dad, ALLAH really help me. puji syukur hanya kepadanya yang Maha Kuasa Atas Segala-galanya. 1st week was like shit(sorry). 2nd week was a lil better, 3rd week, here i am, with the courage to write this entry. i dunnoe for how many times i have to cry. u just broke and ripped my heart into pieces. "Ya ALLAH berikanlah hambamu ini kesabaran dan kekuatan untuk menempuhi cubaan yang kau limpahkan kepada hambamu ini." yes, im moving on with the guidance of ALLAH. i believe in ALLAH. " Simpanlah masa lalumu itu jauh didalam hatimu, kerana ianya hanya akan merugikan dirimu. Apa yang lebih bermakna adalah hari ini, hari dimana kau harus membuat kebaikan di jalan ALLAH." our memories, yes, i dah simpan semua kisah kita jauh didalam hati i. and no use of crying now. " Janganlah engkau sesali sesuatu yang telah terjadi, kerana sesuatu kejadian itu tidak akan terjadi tanpa seizinnya Rabb-mu." whatever happened between us, mungkin telah ditakdirkan. and no use regreting things that already happened. " Seseorang itu adalah dalam kemiskinan dan kerugian apabila mengikut hawa nafsu dan kata hati tanpa berfikir akan Yang Maha Esa". if i follow what my hearts tells me, i guess i wont be here typing. instead i become someone with no future. " Dan Allah menyayangi akan hamba-hambanya yang redha,ikhlas dan sabar menerima cubaan yang telah dihadapkan kepada sang hambanya." Jika redha,ikhlas dan sabar boleh membuat i seseorang hamba yang disayangi tuhannya, i benar benar redha,ikhlas dan sabar. Insyallah. " Cukuplah Allah bagi kita dan Dia adalah sebagai sebaik-baik Pelindung." walaupun i disakiti, hanya kepada Dialah i memohon perlindungan. " Jauhkan lah perasaan balas dendam dan kebencian." " Dan, lenyapkan segala rasa dendam yang berada di dalam hati mereka.) eventhough the way u break me up was kinda harsh for me, dengan Petunjuk Allah, i jauhkan diri i dari balas dendam dan kebencian. " Biarkanlah orang menzalimi mu, tetapi jangan sesekali engkau menzalimi orang." Ya Allah, jauhkan hambamu ini dari menyakiti seseorang. u are someone that i ever love. and i dunt believe in hurting u. i know u are happy with her. good for you. " Janganlah kamu bersedih sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita" i masih bersyukur, that i still have my families, my friends and ALLAH S.W.T. " Hanya cinta kepada RABB-MU (ALLAH S.W.T) yang kekal abadi." when i said that u are my semangat, that i cant live without u. and u were everything for me. sorry, it doesnt apply for now. i was so naive back then. " Ya Allah, hamba adalah manusia biasa yang tidak kalah dari membuat kesilapan dan dosa, Hanya kepadamulah hamba berserah." Kejadian ini adalah anugerah yang paling terindah. u still remember those times when u always remind me about ALLAH and Rasul. the times where we went to library, i busy looking for my stuff, and u were busy looking for Sejarah Islam. i know, everyone change. i dont blame u for whatever happens. i wont ask why this happened. i hanya akan sabar dan satu hari nanti i akan tahu kenapa ini semua terjadi. sorry, but i have to delete our memories. " Jika sesuatu itu dapat menjauhkanmu dari memusnahkan dirimu sendiri, lantas buatlah yang sebaiknya." I have think this over and over. And to prevent me to have this hatred feelings towards u or her, i guess is better for us not to contact each other. And so i deleted ur facebook profile from my acct. I deleted my friendster. And whatever things that you gave me, was all kept in a box. The only thing that i am using now, is only ur roxy purse that u gave me 2 years back as an appreciation for your kindness. Thanks for everything. everyday, i mohon kepada Allah, supaya i won't bump into u and her. but " Janganlah kamu takut akan sesuatu tapi takut hanya kepada Rabb-Mu" hapuskanlah segala ketakutan ini melainkan kau Ya Allah. one day when i bump to u, insyallah, senyuman yang akan kuberikan. sorry for neglecting u. sorry for my hot-tempered behaviour. sorry for not being there when u are in need of someone to talk to. sorry for not treating u well for the past years. sorry for controlling u. but i never had the intention to control u, till now i have no idea what u mean by me controlling u. but again sorry if u think im controlling u. sorry for everything. if u and her are meant to be togeda. i doakan the both of you, your happiness. don't hurt her. as for me, i will have to move on. about our handphone numbers and so. i will find a way to transfer all the bills to my name. do give me time. i guess, this will be enuf. sorry if my entry may hurt u, and i have no intention at all. here is a pic of me and my students. lovable. my favourites. it was like on friday, so i kinda had this mood of wearing baju kurung. haha. orang kata hari mulia kan? that is my desk, see my desk wall, banyak kepe notes.. and my desk is kinda in a mess. and this kids really rocks me big time. thanks love. "teacher, one day when i grow up, i want to be a teacher like u." - u see the girl that sitting on my lap, she said this. how sweet is that sweet!! haha.  and my students and the teachers share and give me this as my bdae pressie.. how kewl is that kewl. i have been telling people that i want g-shock watch. haha, bro wanted to buy me this, but i told him i want adidas, coz g-shock is too ex. and yeah this watch is ex man, thanks to them. i will really adore this watch!! i love it!! see the pic above, pakai baju kurung pun pakai jam sport. sungguh tak senonoh!!  G9000MX-4From the Master of G series of timepieces designed and engineered designed and built for professionals come a new collection of mud and dirt-resistant MUDMAN models in a choice of three colors. Dual independent stopwatches include a 1/100-second stopwatch capable of measuring continuous elapsed time for up to 1,000 hours for separate timing of two different events simultaneously.These models come in a choice of three different colors that are often used on FMX (freestyle motocross) and MX (motocross) motorcycles. Mud & Dirt Resistant, Dual 1/100 Second Stopwatches, Auto Dual EL Backlight w/Afterglow, Digital Dial Code, Red Resin Band.TECHNICAL SPECIFICATIONS
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